i guess the saying "be careful what you wish for,it might come true" really works.

I have always wished for a girl who would take a while to like me. Someone who likes me for my character and not my looks. And that i have to work my way to make her like me. But i have never asked for a situation like this!

i can be all happy and cheerful on the outside but inside, its another thing. And well that's because i have good frens that i can share with which helps me contact my emotion where it should be. Okay maybe not all the time.

To asshole,

i don't know how i should say this, but i wanna be truthful but at the same time not scary:D

I know this part would be kinda unfair to you.

I know that i will wait for you cos i know my feelings are here to stay but what i'm afraid off is that my waiting would be in vain. Like come on, there are other guys who likes you as well and what makes me so sure that i will be the one and not them. Some of them have nicer body, smarter, richer so why me? i can understand the situation you are in and you would probably be speechless if i were to ask you about your feelings. I hope that by saying all this things, it would not affect our friendship:D

kk done! end of emo part.

I drop alot of hair while typing that man. cos i keep pulling my hair. anyway i think i would be rather disappointed when my birthday comes? my hopes are rather high that something special would happen but i guess it just a dream.